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So this morning began w/ a problem. I set today as my official start day for my diet, and had already promised to meet a friend for breakfast. So determined to actually stick w/ my diet I ate at home and when we met at Panera simply drank water after explaining that I had already eaten, but wanted to catch up b/c we haven’t hung out in a while.

So for the first time in a while I’m feeling really positive about everything in my life. I was never really depressed or anything, just in this funk b/c of my sudden and significant weight gain, as well as my sudden problem skin. It just felt like I couldn’t win. I mean I was quickly getting chubby, and then my skin, which had never broken out before, spazzed and got sort of bad. Luckily both my weight and my skin are on the mend. The weight will take longer to fiz than my skin will, but I’m really positive about this.

 I’m graduating in four months, and by then I want to have met my goals for my weight and my skin. I mean this diet is supposed to regualte your hormones and load me up w/ antioxidants and omega-3 fatty acids which protect your skin. It’s supposed to make your skin clear and glowy and stave off wrinkles AND help me drop the weight. I’ll keep everyone posted on it b/c so far I really like the diet and everything I can eat on it. It’s pretty flexible…I’ll also let you know how it affects my skin in case anyone is interested b/c breakouts are awful…..

 Love all the support and advice…..if you have any, throw it my way!

J

Okay so tomorrow I am officially on diet war path. On Wednesday and Thursday I will be fasting, and launching my diet on Friday. I am really excited, but def need motivation to keep me going….so any and all support is def appreciated.

Okay, so this has gone on long enough. I’m finally going to buckle down, and lose this weight and clear up my skin before college, before this summer, before I graduate in June. I am so frustrated b/c everytime I make a major step toward my goal I binge and end up back at the beginning. And now I’m even worse for the wear. So tomorrow I’m beginning a program designed by derm, Nicholas Perricone, and the diet is supposed to help clear your skin, stave off wrinkles, and reach your bodies natural weight. I think I’ll make my goal weight a little higher b/c I saw pics of me at my goal weight and I look sickly thin. So I’ll work on reaching my mini-goal and then I’ll see how I look and feel. I think I’ll also do Pilates, Yoga, Cardio, and little weights to tone up. I think when I was at my goal weight before I was just skinny, and now I’m going for shapely/athletic/thin. So we’ll see. I’ll actually commit to this site now as well b/c I think it’s really important to commit and lose the weight b/c “The more you say tomorrow, the more you weigh tomorrow” and all the pos. encouragement I got from this site the first time really helped me stay motivated. Okay feedback: is heidi klum or petra nemcovas body prettier b/c I’m inclined toward petras when I am on the lower end (like 144 lbs) and heidi’s when I’m closer to 148. I know that probably sounds really conceited, but I hear it a lot and I want some honest feedback……

Uh-oh. Over-indulged again….I seriously need to work on my will power. Anybody w/ advice or weight loss motivation: please lend me your words of advice. Anyways, saddle bags. I have the beginnings of them and I want to nip them in the bud. Any exercises? Thanks. Peace and Love.

 Jacalyn

Okay, so today I made some mediocre diet choices (crab cakes, chocolate,  and pasta w/ peanut butter sauce….) Yumm! Won’t let it get me down though…I’ll just start again tomorrow on a positive note!

I am so amazingly happy right now! Last night my bf brought me 12 red roses and took me to Wildfire. It was incredible. We split dinner and dessert, came back to my place and rented a movie, spent some quality time together…it was really nice. AND I’m down a total of five pounds! It’s, like, good things come in threes….I’m on a lucky streak though. Thanks to everybody who reads this and for all the comments everyone is leaving. I really appreciate them! So, if anybody wants to send me a buddy request or w/e I’d be more than happy to cheer you on and celebrate your weight loss, I can also try to offer any advice (if you need it). Anyways, with renewed motivation, I’m going to start working out again today. I think I’ll start with yoga and pilates. I really want a tight little butt, more defined legs, and a flat stomach. (what don’t I want and who doesn’t want it?) Mostly the butt though. From the past, I know I tone up sort of quickly, so if anybody has any exercises that are EASY and can help me firm and tighten the booty, that’d good. Also, how’re you guys doing? I hope everybody is still motivated to lose and bracing themselves for Thanksgiving…I’m so nervous. luck to all, peace and love, and if you want to help out and suggest some college majors, I’m clueless! (I know medical is out of the question though, ugh, I’m so squeamish I have to close my eyes during Grey’s).   

So here goes the stupidest thing I’ll ever admit to in a public place (or forum) I really want to be on Americas Next Top Model. It’s one of my favorite shows, and for a girl who stands at 6′ 0″, a goal that isn’t entirely unattainable. Especially b/c I’ve flirted with modeling in the past. Actually, it’s the root cause of my weight gain. After meeting with agents I was basically written off as too heavy (at 140 pounds) and so my dad took me to McDonalds after, which set off a binge that’s sort of lasted until now. Please don’t slam me for this…it’s a totally innocent musing and I know that models are so unhealthy and not always very good role models, but fitness modeling would be incredible. So I guess that’s part of my motivation. If I lost this weight and applied to/ got on the show it would be so cool; a slap in the face of the people who told me I was too big. Okay, that’s my one embarrassing vice. And it’s funny that the only ppl who know are the ones who read this blog, and my mom and dad. I won’t tell my friends b/c they’d all think exactly what I would if it were somebody else: Get Over Yourself! So I’ll clarify: I think it would be cool to meet a weight goal, and use my height to my advantage and see if I could get anywhere. Peace and Love and down another pound!

So I’ve lost one pound! Slowly but surely….haha. Anyways, it’s good to be home. It was a long week. A lot of school stuff, a lot of fighting off this flu bug/ cough, a lot of dancing (dance camp thurs and fri from 3-8) except tonight they let half of us go early b/c luckily I’m not in the last dance…

so, I’m basically STARVING…does anyone have filling, low-cal, low-fat snack suggestions? I know they say the hunger pangs go away after awhile of eating smaller portions, but it’ll be hard to deal w/ this stomach ache that’s not only nagging, but a constant reminder of letting myself go to too many bbqs, drive through too many drive-thrus, sneak too many desserts….ick.

tomorrow will def be my biggest obstacle so far (it’s only been a day, but still…) my bf made dinner reservations (I don’t know where) but wish me luck b/c I love restaurant food (who doesn’t?!)

Anyways, I’m taking the night to stay in. I rented License to Wed (one of the best movies ever), and still have grey’s on tape so I’m going to snuggle under a million blankets and take a much needed break.

best of luck to all, peace and love, and please send me any snack ideas!

Jacalyn

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(looks like I need to kick up the exercise, but that’s tomorrows hurdle to jump)

So I packed on the pounds this summer/fall and can’t even bring myself to tell the exact number to my family. Sad, right? Anyways, at 6′0″ and 165 pounds I am by no means overweight; doughy might be a better adjective. However, usually I weigh in at 130-138 so I have gotten significantly heavier. So it’s time to start actively TRYING to lose weight. Here’s the deal: In August I totally stopped working out (or did so very infrequently) and started eating a very UNBALANCED diet (ex: TONS of fast food, desserts, and snack foods like chips and pretzels) I didn’t just eat those foods more frequently, they’ve become daily staples that I binge on, either in private or masked under “well I haven’t eaten today” or w/e. It’s unhealthy, and causing not only weight gain, but self esteem loss.  So instead of deciding to wait for a New Year’s resolution or put it off AGAIN, I’m going to start November 1. I’m going to work out again and re-train myself to eat healthily. I need support through this. My family’s sick of all talk, no action; I’m sick of it; and I won’t dump it on my friends or boyfriend. SO….I joined this forum for support and commitment; Set a goal and work my butt off until I reach it. Luckily, if I do, I am going to 1) Go on a major shopping spree 2) Spend a day at the spa being totally spoiled rotten! So I have 30 pounds until I reach my goal of 135. Wish me luck, and help me out please.

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